Monday, March 31, 2008

Apparitions and Laughter

Since everything is but an apparition,
Perfect in being what it is,
Having nothing to do with good or bad,
Acceptance or rejection

You might as well burst out laughing!

LONGCHENPA

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Here With the Lord Beside Me

She sits on the double bed in her studio apartment with great dignity, the early morning light streaming in the window. Gospel music plays on a small CD player on a table by the kitchen door. This is our first meeting since I'm just covering for her usual nurse.

"How are you this morning, _________?"

"Oh, I'm OK. I'm here with the Lord beside me," she says with a nod of her head towards the CD player. The music plays on.

"Did you sleep well last night?" I ask.

"Well, I only slept a few hours. I can't sleep much since the doctors killed my daughter last year."

I look her in the eye, and she stares back. Her gaze makes me slightly uneasy, but I hold it.

"I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter. That must be so hard."

"Yes, but He sees me through."

We listen to the gospel music for a moment.

"The music is really beautiful," I say sincerely.

"Can I give you your meds now?"

"Sure, honey," she replies.

I put her morning meds together, prefill her evening meds to take with dinner, and ask if she needs anything else.

"No, I'll be alright. My PCA will be here in a few hours."

"OK. I hope to see you again some time, my dear."

"God bless you, and thanks for coming."

She stares at me with that unsettling gaze again. Sometimes the chronically mentally ill can be socially awkward or unaware of how they look at people or how they speak. But in this case, I just feel like she's looking at me very deeply, and I simply try to meet her gaze.

"God bless you, too, and I'm very sorry about your daughter."

"Thanks you. Bye bye, dear," she says as I close the door.

Walking to my car, the ubiquitousness of loss and grief hits me, and I take a deep breath as I open the car door.

Just another day on earth.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

A Neighbor, A Death, and Thoughts Thereof

This morning, I was walking our dog and noticed a line of cars in front of a neighbor's house. All of the people walking up to the house were dressed in dark colors and the mood seemed very somber. Arriving home, I told Mary that I had the feeling that someone had died. We checked the local obituary and discovered right away that our neighbor---a man of 57 in the prime of his life---had indeed died twelve days ago of cardiac complications. Luckily, the memorial service was today, and we were able to attend and join the community of mourners.

The service was held in a local church, the altar still brimming with Easter flowers. The music of Van Morrison played in the background as people filed in and found their seats amongst the pews, and the service itself was a lovely event, replete with moving readings, poignant music and poetry, funny stories, and shared remembrances. The wife of the deceased spoke of their thirty years of marriage, and his adult children each took a turn to honor their beloved father whose absence will be all too keen as they themselves move toward their own parenthood.

Over the course of the service, I remarked to myself how this particular event was just what it should be. For those familiar with the person who had died, it was a reminder of cherished stories and of his particular idiosyncrasies which made him unique. With friends coming from near and far, I'm sure some new stories came to light and provided even more elucidation of his very singular mark upon the world.

For those of us less familiar with our neighbor, the service provided a very intimate snapshot of a life well lived, and the varied sharings left one with a very strong impression of a man, a family, a life, and a brilliant personal legacy.

Mary and I did not know this gentleman well, but we would cross paths with him and his wife while we walked our dogs over the years, and I recall that she even came to our house for a party once upon a time. Luckily for us, the last time we saw him was in the autumn. We were sitting by the pond near our house, and he sauntered over with his dog and sat himself down next to us, something quite uncharacteristic for a man who was generally much more socially reserved. I recall that we were at first feeling rather private, but he was very good company that day and we enjoyed our conversation with him very much, and never saw him again throughout the subsequent long and cold winter. What a blessing that we had that opportunity to be with him, and how glad I am that we have that memory of our last interaction.

Now, a new widow is in our midst, and within the privacy of her home, she will continue this process of grieving that is only weeks old. She and her children will go to the university to clean out his office, go through his papers, and will perhaps be at once perplexed and overjoyed by the things that they discover. How little thought most of us must give to the fact that, upon our untimely death, our loved ones will need to rifle through our things and settle the dust of our lives. There will be much to settle in that household after such a creative and productive life, and I do not envy that family the difficult task at hand.

With two dear friends so recently in surgery and now the death of our neighbor, I'm reminded quite starkly of the fleeting nature of life. As I struggle with chronic pain and some recently significant depression, I hold my own life up for close examination and wonder what conclusions would be drawn about me at my own funeral. I know I need to smile and laugh more. I also know I need to have more fun and take time to relax. While I struggle to earn enough money, I can say with certainty that no one at my funeral would begrudge my earning power or lack thereof. Still, life proffers many challenges, and we strive to honor our earthly responsibilities while also taking time to smell the roses.

Life is tenuous at best, and this week's experiences in my own life demonstrate that it can be saved or snuffed out at any moment. I am aware of this tenuousness, and I only wish to make that awareness something that informs my every breath.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Friends at Risk

As I write this missive, two friends are undergoing surgery, placing their lives in the hands of doctors and nurses and anesthetists on this very morning.

One friend is having a total hysterectomy in order to control Dysfunctional Uterine Bleeding (DUB) which has been unresponsive to hormones and other non-invasive treatments.

The other friend has been suffering from severe headaches and back pain which could not be controlled with any medications. An MRI of the brain revealed a 2-centimeter tumor in the frontal lobe. There are many risks to the surgery, including nerve damage which could result in paralysis or other consequences.

I will also mention that the husband of an old friend has multi-organ cancer which has not responded to conventional chemotherapy and he will now undergo a clinical trial at a major East Coast cancer treatment center in an attempt to slow or reverse the disease process.

May the surgeons and nurses and other surgical staff be guided to perform at the height of their skill. May my friends recover from surgery fully healed, without negative side effects or complications. May the cancers be contained and eradicated. We prayed for them last night here in our house, and we will hold them in our thoughts this morning and throughout the day.

What are my problems in the face of such suffering and life-altering disease? May we all find perspective and some modicum of peace when we examine and consider the suffering of others.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Back in the Saddle

Dear Readers,

I have been out of town for the long holiday weekend, visiting family along the Eastern Seaboard. If you and yours celebrate Easter, I hope it was joyous. And if you celebrated Purim, joy and merriment to you as well!

Traveling by Amtrak had its ups and downs, but overall it was worthwhile not having to drive all of those arduous miles. (I am also aware that train travel is a good choice vis-a-vis environmental impact). Still, getting around by train in the U.S. is nothing like it is in other countries, and I found myself pining for the timely, clean, and comfortable trains of Europe.

Now, here I am back at home, happy to be in my own space, and ready to get back to work once again. Stay tuned for the usual frequent blog posts, and please keep those comments, cards, and letters coming!

Blessings!

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Change of Shift, Vol. 2, No. 19

The newest edition of Change of Shift is now available for your reading pleasure. Change of Shift, the brain-child of Kim McAllister at Emergiblog, brings you some of the best blogging by nurses anywhere in the blogosphere. I highly recommend a perusal, and many thanks to Kim for keeping Change of Shift active and dynamic.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

The Ides of March

"Beware the Ides of March" was the soothsayer's warning to Julius Caesar prior to his assassination in 44 B.C., and the saying was apparently ingrained in the English language by William Shakespeare in his play Julius Caesar as a warning of impending doom.

According to Wikipedia, "the term ides was used for the 15th day of the months of March, May, July, and October, and the 13th day of the other 8 months" (in the Roman calendar).

In my life, the Ides of March signifies one of the most difficult times of the year. Living in New England, mid-March generally manifests as a blustery and damp time of fickle weather, fluctuating temperatures, chilly winds, and a deep longing for a Spring that is painfully slow to arrive. In the latter portions of March and early April, "mud season" arrives as the ground thaws and fills with the moisture from melting snow and ice. In March, our warmth- and sun-starved faces turn towards the sun whose appearances are still frustratingly brief. Still, with extended Daylight Savings Time and the natural course of solar events, sunset comes later and later, and the return of the light is upon us.

As I so recently opined, March also brings several death anniversaries, as well as the birthdays of a number of deceased loved ones, a potentially unfortunate synchronicity. But perhaps this inward and historically melancholy time is naturally and simply perfect for reflection and grief. One must remember that, on the heels of this most interminable winter, Spring is just around the corner, bringing with it longer days, brighter sun, blooming trees and grasses, and rising temperatures.

I wait with baited breath for those heady days when we can lay on soft earth and grass, soak in the sun, and turn our faces towards that beloved golden orb with relish and joy. Until then, we allow the Ides of March to come and go, looking forward towards the dawning of April and the coming of Spring.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Pain: The Unwanted Hitchhiker

Chronic pain is so very inconvenient. It is so limiting and restricting, like a belt worn unnecessarily tight.

Pain effects one's sleep, one's ability to exercise. It can curtail the enjoyment of sex, and even the most burgeoning appetite. It restricts one's activities, precludes some activities altogether, and can be a demoralizing agent whose influence cannot always be ignored.

Pain is like a hitchhiker who has worn out his welcome but cannot be extricated from the passenger seat. Perhaps his first appearance was not overly worrisome, and he exited peacefully when requested to do so. Maybe he was even helpful that time you had an emotional flat tire and needed an excuse to rest. But months later, thoroughly ensconced in the back seat, wearing an iPod, drinking a Coke and ignoring your every plea, this aberrant guest now refuses to let you be. The welcome mat---if it had ever been in place---was long ago jettisoned, but this vagabond ignores the rules and clings to you like a needy child.

When did this pain become such a burden? At what point did I realize that my life was being taken over? When was it that I picked up a passenger whose very presence makes me scream with impatience?

And so, with no other bright ideas, I embrace pain as a teacher. I follow his lead, peering into dark alleys which have long been ignored. He leads me to painful emotional places riddled with doubt and self-loathing. His mere presence is yet another vehicle for cultivating a mindful response to life, acceptance of what is, however difficult or ugly.

I am mindful of my pain, but also mindful of my innate ability to rise above its undo influence on my life. He is an unwanted hitchhiker, it's true. But even the most unwanted guest may hold in his hand a gift of great beauty, and since he is slow to reveal his secrets, I will continue to pursue them, even as I wish him gone.

So, dear Pain, my most aberrant passenger: reveal your gift and be done with it. I am ready for the message now, and ready for you to move on. The damage has been done, and I am poised to reclaim my life from your messy grasp. Relinquish me now, and leave your gift by the door. And please, don't look back. You will not be missed in the least.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

A Brief and Pleasant Exchange

She's waiting for me in front of the tired clapboard house on a busy city street. I'm doing a visit for a colleague (in my new consultant position), dropping off some meds and checking in on this very lively couple with whom I am totally unacquainted.

"Hey! Thanks for coming over with the meds!" her partner yells. He is jovial and talkative, slapping my back and shaking my hand.

The house is a boarding house: shared kitchen, office downstairs with staff during the day. Pretty clean inside, a little rough around the edges. Their room is one large bedroom with a bathroom and a closet. A little small and dark, I think.

"How long have you been here?"

"About a month," she says.

"It's great. You both seem really happy. Can I check your blood pressure while I'm here?" I hand him his prefilled medication box and give her the rest of the things I've brought over: medicated shampoo and cream, Lidoderm patches for his muscle pain.

"It's so much better than the shelter," he adds. "I've been clean two, maybe three years now. See my tracks?" He shoves his arm at me as he rolls up his sleeve. I examine his forearm and the crook of his elbow, which he obviously wants me to inspect closely. Sure enough, track marks galore, but quite old and healed.

I take his blood pressure as he sits on their only chair. When it's time for me to check hers, she sits on his knee.

"This woman," he says, motioning to his partner. "She's my life. Don't know what I'd do without her."

"You all obviously care about each other a lot," I say in response.

"Yeah, through thick and thin," he says. She laughs.

We talk briefly about their health. I question them, nurse-style, about their bowels, their urinary status, pain management, respiratory status, the usual line of questioning. They answer each question with kindness and patience.

"Hey, thanks for coming, man. We really appreciate it." He shakes my hand and slaps my back again, just like he did when I arrived.

She leads me down the stairs.

"You have yourself a man who loves you, don't you?" I ask.

"Oh, he's the best. We've been though a lot together."

"Well, you keep taking care of each other. I hear you're both doing a great job."

She smiles. "Yeah, I guess so. We're tryin'. That shelter was awful, but things are better now. Thanks for bringin' our stuff over. Sometimes it's so hard to get to the clinic."

"No problem. Glad to help out," I reply. "I hope to see y'all again."

"You're always welcome here." She smiles as she closes the door.

So polite. So welcoming. So amenable to my presence, despite never having met me before. A thoroughly pleasant interaction, made easier by the fact that I bear no responsibility for their care, just for this brief and satisfying exchange.

Monday, March 10, 2008

A Letter to My Hospice Employer

Dear ____________,

It is with regret and disappointment that I am writing to officially resign my position as a per diem Registered Nurse at ___________. Apropos of our recent telephone conversation, I now feel that, in the interest of my health, I can no longer safely work at _________ under the current circumstances.

As you may recall my mentioning previously, at my interview I discussed with ______ my concerns regarding the use of strong chemical cleaning products at ___________, and I shared with him my diagnosis of Multiple Chemical Sensitivity (MCS). ______ reassured me that ____________ was very interested in “going green” (his words) and he indicated quite clearly that my input vis-a-vis this process would be greatly appreciated. Subsequently, you and I had several long conversations about this subject, and I gave you a plethora of printed materials outlining the health risks of chemical cleaners and relatively inexpensive ways to replace them with natural alternatives.

Following our last face to face conversation prior to your vacation, I was happy to see that the laundry detergent being used had been changed to a “free and clear” alternative, however dryer strips continued to show up in the laundry room despite my frequent requests for them to be removed.

In terms of other products, I have made repeated requests for ____________ to supply unscented hand soap, dish soap, and hand sanitizer, and I added these requests to various shopping lists, leaving additional notes that I could assist in finding the most economically reasonable alternatives. Insofar as this situation goes, I was informed a number of times that volunteers do the shopping and that what they purchase for use at ____________ cannot be completely controlled, an unfortunate sentiment that you reiterated on the phone the other day.

On the first page of The ___________ Employee handbook, it is made exceedingly clear that __________ honors the spirit of the Americans with Disabilities Act and that all reasonable accommodations will be made for individuals with disabilities protected under the ADA. For your information, MCS is indeed a diagnosis supported by the ADA, and it is my strong feeling that _____________has failed to make reasonable accommodations on my behalf, a clear violation of the ADA guidelines.

At this point, I would like to elucidate my point further via the illustration of a potential scenario. Suppose that _____________ hired a new office manager who either walks with a cane, uses a walker, or is perhaps wheelchair-bound. Or perhaps a current office employee became disabled while employed by ______________ and was subsequently confined to a wheelchair. Due to the nature of this person’s very visible disability, I would venture a guess that no stone would be left unturned in order to accommodate this person’s disability since, a) that person’s disability would be clearly visible, and b) the legal ramifications of not accommodating that individual’s disability would be enormous and costly. (For reasons of this illustration, I suggest an office employee being disabled, as it is clear that a physical disability would preclude the hiring of a clinical employee due to the physical demands of the work.)

In my particular case, I have an “invisible” disability which, while it does not interfere with my performance of my role as a nurse, does indeed cause me mental and physiological distress while working at _____________. The chemicals in use at ____________ cause symptoms including confusion, chest discomfort, shortness of breath, headache, and dizziness, all of which are documented symptoms of MCS. So, putting two and two together, we can see several aspects of this situation very clearly:

1) I informed _____ of my condition at my interview and he reassured me that accommodations would be made.

2) I spoke with you about my symptoms several times and provided you with printed material to corroborate my complaints.

3) ___________'s Employee Handbook clearly states that reasonable accommodations will be made for persons with conditions covered under the ADA.

4) You have made it clear that the volunteers’ shopping habits simply cannot be controlled (even though they are all reasonable and intelligent individuals), thus accommodations of my medical needs simply cannot be promised.

5) The cost of replacing the chemical cleaners and fragranced products used by _____________would not be in any way financially prohibitive, yet there seems to be a failure of will on the part of _______________ management to make an effort in this regard.

6) A patient with lung cancer at ______________has suffered documented respiratory symptoms from use of chemical cleaners by staff.

7) I can longer safely work at ______________ due to this situation.

8) If my (or another employee’s) disability was “visible”, this letter would not need to be written.

Based upon my reading of the situation, I see no recourse but to tender my resignation to ____________, effective immediately. I would strongly advise _____________ to revisit its commitment to the ADA and avoid potential future legal recourse from employees who might see fit to take action against ___________ vis-a-vis violations of the ADA, something that I have no plans to do at this time, despite the fact that my case is quite clear.

Thank you for the opportunity to be of service at ____________, and I am deeply regretful that I am forced to resign my position due to circumstances clearly beyond my control and apparently beyond __________'s desire for right action.


Sincerely,


NurseKeith

Saturday, March 08, 2008

International Womens Day

Today is International Womens Day, and I want to take this moment to recognize this very important day for women worldwide, a day which saw its genesis in the Socialist movement of the early 20th century. The website of the World Health Organization points out that this year's theme is "investing in women and girls". Investment can mean many things to many people. In my view, we could best invest in women's health, girl's education, violence eradication, an end to war, and socioeconomic justice for women, to name a few places to begin.

As the son of a woman, the husband of a woman, the uncle of several women, the brother of a woman, and the brother-in-law and son-in-law of several women, I feel that I have many significant and powerful women in my family and in my life, and I am grateful for them, as I am for all of the women who touch my life, both personally and professionally.

Having always considered myself a feminist, and working in a profession which is 95% women, I am sensitive to the plight of women and aware of the struggle for power and recognition which women have waged for hundreds of years. Today, in many countries worldwide, women still fight against the threats of rape and violence, not to mention the constancy of war. With rape being used as a tool of war, and human trafficking---mostly of girls---still widely prevalent, girls around the world are still at a great disadvantage.

International Womens Day is but one day when the world's attention is drawn towards the struggles of women for justice and parity in a world which has yet to fully offer either unequivocally. I urge you, dear Reader, to pause and consider how you might contribute---financially or otherwise---to the advancement of women's causes today and beyond, and then perhaps make a plan to follow through. Whether it be a contribution of time to a single young girl, or a check to a women's organization of your choice, consider how you can invest one small piece of yourself in the struggle, and honor yourself for being a part of the solution.

Happy International Womens Day.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

MCS Ad Nauseum

Over the last few years I have written a number of posts about Multiple Chemical Sensitivity (MCS), a condition from which my wife and I both suffer to varying degrees. MCS is essentially an invisible disability, which, although recognized by the Americans with Disabilities Act, is still not recognized by the American Medical Association. Thus, gaining recognition is a struggle, as is having people believe that it's even real.

Living with MCS presents layer upon layer of difficulty. Having our own families truly understand what a struggle it is for us to spend time in their homes is difficult at best, and we are often symptomatic with little feeling that we can truly address our symptoms' root causes. In our own home, we find we are deleteriously affected by our neighbors' use of fragranced dryer strips, charcoal, and lighter fluid, something that becomes much more problematic when we want to have our windows open in the nice weather. We love to travel, and this has become a challenge as well, since hotels, trains, buses and restaurants are simply deluged with chemicals and fragrances, and what little control we can exercise does not always seem like quite enough. It's no wonder that people with severe MCS often become socially isolated, losing friends and even family over a disability that so few people seem willing to understand and accommodate.

Working in the healthcare industry, I am equally challenged in trying to control my level of exposure to cleaning products while on the job. In my previous place of employment, a modicum of changes were made in order to accommodate my condition, although I still feel that they could have done much better. People are very unwilling to change, especially when it comes to cleaning products and personal care products, even if those very products are causing harm to someone they care about. Still, it was relatively tolerable, and now that I work at that office as a consultant, I come and go without spending forty hours per week in that poorly ventilated space, and it seems to have little negative effect on me in the bigger picture.

At this point in my career, one reason that I would still refuse to work in a hospital would be the level of exposure to toxic chemicals that such employment would necessitate. As a case manager, I have visited respiratory units where such strong cleaning products were being used that I couldn't imagine that patients were not being negatively impacted. And while many hospitals now proclaim themselves "smoke free" for the health of patients and employees, fumes of cleaning agents and disinfectants poison the lungs and immune systems of everyone who is exposed.

Safe and effective alternatives to these harmful products do indeed exist, but the petrochemical industry is a powerful lobby, and this relatively unregulated industrial giant has brainwashed Americans into thinking that they just can't live without the sickening smell of Tide, Bounce, Lysol, and Cascade. We have been duped into believing that strong fragrances bode cleanliness, when it is the absence of fragrance and chemical residues that is the cleanest and most healthy choice for humans and the environment. "Better living through chemistry" may be true in some instances (my successful use of Prozac for 20 years being a testament to that), but unbeknownst to most Americans, the vast majority of chemicals on the market in this country have never been tested for safety---and are indeed not legally required to be---and many are actually banned in the European Union due to their known carcinogenicity.

I am now in a position where I feel forced to make a decision to resign from my current position as a nurse in a residential hospice in my home town. This pending resignation is due to the fact that my employer is simply not willing to make reasonable accommodations for my (hidden) disability. Sure, desultory attempts have been made to replace the laundry detergent with a "free and clear" brand, and they have finally done away with dryer strips completely. Still, they are loathe to change all of the other products that contribute to what I call the "chemical aura" of the house, even though a patient with lung cancer recently had a respiratory reaction to a cleaning agent used by one of the home health aides on duty. If I had a visible disability, or if one of the office managers used a wheelchair, for instance, there would be no end of accommodations made for what is deemed a "real" condition. Also, the disabled community is a powerful lobby with a great deal of political clout, and an ADA violation is not a small thing with which to reckon. I am hesitant to bring an ADA lawsuit against this employer, and while I will communicate the reasons for my resignation, in the end, they will suffer no ill effects from my departure.

While my MCS has improved over the last few years due to dietary and lifestyle changes made under the guidance of a wonderful and progressive doctor who treats such conditions, the real road to improvement still lies in the avoidance of exposures. Life with MCS is quite simply a struggle which the vast majority of people simply do not understand---even family---and it is, in the bigger picture, a very isolating exercise which has far-reaching implications for lifestyle, travel, employment, friendships, and beyond.

Monday, March 03, 2008

The Flu Still Fits....

The flu is infamous for making it seem like it's on the way out, and just when the unsuspecting victim begins to expend some extra energy----ZAP!----down he or she goes once again.

I am trying to avoid this pitfall by laying low, sticking to home, begging off all work, and basically treating myself like an invalid. Today's menu: a wonderful Israeli movie which I highly recommend (whether you're sick or not); a few ever-so-brief walks with Tina the dog; some emailing; some phone-calls; some computer-based work; a nap or two; another movie which I cried my way through; and an evening with Mary. All in all, not a challenging schedule by any stretch.

And tomorrow? I'm afraid to even plan........

Sunday, March 02, 2008

If the Flu Fits.......

Woe to anyone who suffers the flu this season, and I can now count myself among the chosen who have been visited by this most hard-hitting of viral illnesses. Arriving home from a trip to see my parents, I began to feel unwell on the train as I traveled through New York State. By the time I arrived home to New England, a fever, chills, and unbelievable muscle aches had taken over, and I moaned my way through the night as my amazingly patient and solicitous wife tended to my every need. Now I'm lethargic, with a head that feels like it's filled with cotton-candy, and muscles that ache unceasingly (although a hot bath worked wonders this afternoon).

According to the Centers for Disease Control, the week of February 23rd---the 8th week in this year's flu season---saw widespread reporting of influenza by epidemiologists in every state but Florida. You can see the epidemiological map here. According to the data, the entire country seems to have become "lit up" with flu, so to speak, during the month of February.

It is often difficult for people to tell whether they have the flu or a common cold. There are many tools available to assist you in making that determination before you call your doctor, and I offer several useful links forthwith.

A handy quiz on About.com will guide you through a series of questions to determine the potential source of your illness.

C Health offers this table comparing various symptoms.

The good ol' CDC offers general advice on the difference between the flu and the common cold.

And the U.S. FDA also chimes in with a basic table of symptoms.

As far as treatment for the flu, there's really nothing more to do than rest, hydrate, take a non-steroidal anti-inflammatory for pain and headache, and then rest some more. And did I mention rest? If your fever becomes precipitously high---especially in children and adults with other underlying conditions---a trip or telephone call to the doctor is probably in order. However, the majority of flu sufferers can usually stay home and recover without unnecessary use of medical resources.

As for me, even more rest is now in order, and I hope to be back to my usual self in a few days. Luckily, transmission of real viruses is impossible over the Internet, thus blogging while suffering from the flu is still allowed by the CDC.

More soon from Influenza Central.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Thoughts and Happiness

We are what we think.

All that we are arises with our thoughts.

With our thoughts we make the world.

Speak or act with an impure mind
And sorrow will follow you As the wheel
follows the ox that draws the cart.

Speak or act with a pure mind
And happiness will follow you As your
shadow, unshakeable.


----THE BUDDHA